Becca's Journal

becba @ 2006-11-09T00:17:00

2006-11-09T04:17:54Z

Hey whats up LJ. Remember me? My last update was in May. I still have braces in my default pic. I think I'll start using this thing again. MY MY MY how much Ive grown up since May, I have so much to talk about hah. But not right now. I have mono and I'm about to pass out and wake up and get my hair dyed tomorrow. Awesome (:

"You're such a liar"

2006-05-24T00:08:03Z

It's been a really long time since I've updated. A lot's been going on. I like to keep busy. Perhaps a longer, detailed update later?

Meanwhile, check out my Wildwood weekend and Senior prom pics
http://community.webshots.com/user/rumgum100

oh yeah, and I hate boys. Bye.

BACKTRACK!

2006-04-27T03:11:33Z

Mr. WT was awesome!! COngrats Justin you were a-mazing :)
Junior Prom was fun :)
I love when Raul and NICK come to rehersals. We get things done and its fun at the same time.
Shows at Timber Creek and Triton this past weekend were great, but our scores were not. I just dont get it. We're finally being fierce and working our asses off to prove how bad we want this, yet we get yelled at by TJ in return? Are we the problem? Is our show really overwritten for us to handle? or do the judges just despise us that much? I need to know the answers because its stressful having great shows but not getting much out of it. We just need to keep doing what we've been doing for the past few weeks and hopefully things will start to change, atlease score wise!
I get my braces off in a month! I am so excited its ridiculous.
I still don't have a prom dress. I need to get on top of that. mmyeah...
I need to do laundry..so bad...
Wildwood is in a week! cant wait to go shopping for it and actually be there with the best people. EVERYBODY BETTER TAKE A DAY TRIP DOWN AND SEE US! call me for dates and times.
I am going to the shore tomorrow. Yes, the shore. I choose not to go to school, sure this may push back my graduation until 2007 for having so many absences, but so be it!
I have to finish my psych paper and poster. I have english work to do.
I need money to get recerted for lifeguarding. YAY for fulltime this summer.
I need money for a lot of things. Hey big spenderrrrrr!
I need sleep.
I am very needy.
Im free friday night, who's taking me out? awesome thanks.
Rehersal Saturday 12-4 then party at night. Champtionships at Timber Creek this Sunday- come out and see us! To everybody who said they were going to come last weekend and never did, I know who you are, make up for your lies!
oh and I am changing Cinny Lew...for the better :)

ta-ta

becba @ 2006-03-27T09:29:00

2006-03-27T14:54:18Z

In the past two weeks, I have done a lot of procrastinating and laying around. That is, because I am currently not working. With all of my free time, Ive been getting my nails done on a 2-week basis. Ive hung out with Britt which is nice, we hardly ever see eachother. Ive also been hanging out with Evin a lot too. Our new thing is going to Denny's, which is where I met this guy Nick. He is cute and I like him lots. We hang out. Its fun. I got to hang out with Steve Lantz when we was on spring break a couple weeks ago and we watched movies, Red Eye and 40 Yr Old Virgin to be exact- both very good movies. That same day I drove Al to Delaware for Apex and I got to see all my favorite 'pexers. I got a little lost on the way home, I realized this when I started to pass factories and warehouses. The following day I had a competition at Henderson. Wow can you say bad show? Atleast on an individual level. I hate when everyone has a good show and youre the only one who screws up. To make me feel better, I slept over Laurens, as did Michelle. We woke up Sunday and went to the Cherry Hill mall. I love them. Counseling is a waste, I think I mention that in all my posts. But I mean it, I absolutely hate it. On a better note, I went to Adelphia's last week to pick up the last of my paychecks. Whats up $800 I kinda love you. I just realized I hang out with Evin and Meegan way too much. But I love it, they keep me sane. Denny's is my stress relief. I love Friday night parties. I also love colorguard, but at the same time I just cant stand it anymore- for multiple reasons. Sleepovers with Meegan are amazing. I like when she dyes my hair. Waking up the next morning for breakfast at Friendly's is, too. We were good girls yesterday, we worked on our psych essays and actually managed to get them done. After our hard work, we took a 2 hour nap then went to Target for some cd's. Then we paid a visit to Andrew because he is worth it. This week is senior trip week. YAYYYYY okay everybody going you can stop freaking out, it gets annoying to those who are not going because they couldn't afford to go. Im not saying you cant be excited, but just take it down a notch. I have plans for this week, I will NOT go to school. A day in Philly, shore with my girls, shopping, possible prom dress purchasing, and lots of sleep are just starters. It is going to be so relaxing and fun. Ive been a bad girl, I need to fix that. Hah no thanks. Thats all I got.

becba @ 2006-03-06T09:30:00

2006-03-06T14:47:52Z

-I got to hang out with Brittany last Monday which was awesome. Me and her barely see eachother anymore I guess our schedules conflict too much. But I had no practice so we drove around Haddonfield then got some food, and caught up with eachothers lives. I really do miss her. I miss alot of people, it sucks I dont get to see poeple I used to be close with...
-DECA states was last Tuesday through Friday in Cherry Hill. It was fun alltogether, yet I managed to have some drama! What kind of trip would it be without it anyway? Met some people from schools I never even heard of, made it to semifinals, barely slept. Good times.
-Last Saturday indoor show at Kingsway, we had a really good show our best one so far. But for once I just want a score to prove it. Or a decent placement. I know that neither of those really matter but it would be nice to have and brag about once in a while! TIA YOU SUCK. A few friends coming made up for it though like Allen, Cassie, and Monica. Then it was good to see Diane, Christina, and Eric even though they got there as we were leaving the floor! Also got to see Mr C. Ms. Romann and Rob which was cool, I heard twp drumline did well also so yay for them. And what better of a show then to see A and B! I love them!
-I need to get tested for mono. I feel like death.
-This week is my last at Adelphia's. *cries about it* whoa look at that im over it.
-No show this weekend. what will I do with my Saturday night?!
-Someone find me a new job! You have one week startinggggg...NOW!

p-sout

some old, some new

2006-02-23T04:54:23Z

I got my hair cut again. Its fun. Its crazy.

I wish counseling actually worked. I feel as though I'm getting nothing out of it.

work sucks. I want to put my 2 weeks in but at the same time I dont. I like some people, I cant stand my schedule manager she needs to fall off a cliff, I dont get paid enough, and I sure as hell hate weekends. what to do, what to do...

The first indoor show of the season was this past Saturday..theres not a whole lot to say about it other than the fact that its done and over with. Who knows whats in store for us this season. I wish people would be more dedicated to the show, I feel like not everyone wants to be there. Its a fun show and has a lot of potential, but its never going to work if we dont work with it. Rehersal tonight sucked. People bitch nonstop for the whole 2 hours. and Im sorry if youre reading this and getting offended but its how I feel and I want things to change. I want everyone to want to be there and learn and clean and get better. I want to go out at regionals this Saturday and lay it down so hard that people talk about our show positively and look forward to seeing us perform again. I want to be good! All drama needs to stop like now because it gets in the way of things. Am I the only one who feels this way? Hm.

Dal's party this past Sunday was fun. I saw lots of people I havent seen in a long time. Angie came down from school and spent the night which is always lots of fun. Then Monica, Allen, and Michelle came over later. I love my friends a whoooole lot hehe.

I ate a lot this weekend. I ate alot these past 2 weeks. I need to work out. Im fat and I dont like it.

Whats up braces still on my teeth? I fucking hate you.

Thank you and have a nice night.
and a big THANK YOU to Rutgers for accepting me :)

becba @ 2006-02-13T10:55:00

2006-02-13T16:10:00Z

People piss me off. Like seriously, use your head and dont be such a selfish dick all the time. Theres more important things going on in the world besides you you you all the time. THANKS!

I made a baby this past weekend.

We got alot of snow, and I dont like it. But I do like the fact that I didnt go to work yesterday even though I called in and they said I had to hah. No thanks, I like days off :)

New kind of counseling today right after school. Not looking forward to it. Its not like it helps or does any kind of improvement. Its quite a waste of time!

WOrk 4 days this week, no school Friday (and next Monday woo!), our first indoor show of the season this Saturday, and a grad party for Danielle on Sunday >:O Guess thats all I have to look forward to, atleast for now.

Im bitter and depressed. I DONT LIKE IT. But nobody seems to understand that I cant help it anymore. Its a permanent part of me, no matter how many good things are out there.

Is it time for summer yet? or even better, college?

No no drama. We dont want no drama.

2006-02-06T14:31:06Z

I worked 25 hours last week, and will work another 26 this week. whats up money?

Danielle graduated college last Wednesday, good times good times. I cried a little during her speech and got all sentimental for about 5 seconds. Then we went to Lambertti's and it was beautiful. The food was mmm mmm good.

Saturday I had rehersal 10-2, and it actually went quite well. I WILL get that partner toss down by the first show! After a tiring yet successful practice I went home, showered, and picked up Krissy to go food shopping. We are a mess together! And its true, you always see atleast one person you know in the supermarket haha. After shopping we went back home, took Cujo out, ate some Taco Bell- emo window pictures and gotta love laughing so hard and having diet coke come out of the nose ;) Then we did it Denny's style. Then we killed an hour of our time driving around before we went to see The Family Stone. A very weird, yet at the same time cute movie. I like having Saturdays off.

AAAND I like talking to people I havent talked to in a while. you know who you are :)

Im actaully starting to like work. Maybe it'll all come around and get even better, who knows. I dont wanna jinx it >:O

I hate high school. Im over it. I need to leave. Now. CONGRATS ALLEN PERRY FOR GETTING INTO MR. WT! I LOVE YOU BEST FRIEND, NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAYS <33333

whats up Poland this summer?

Oh and Krissy- "Its just not gonna happen".

What did Delaware? Her New Jersey!

2006-01-27T04:38:41Z

sup

Ill start off with saying the lovely Cindy Lew is over and shes actually sitting right next to me as I type this. After work tonight I was surprised to see her at Ruby Tuesdays. Cant go a week without seeing the lovely Lew!

Last Sunday I went to Delaware for Apex winterfest with Ray-Dal and Michelle. yeah I kidnapped them and drove to another state. It was the craziest day ever haha, from getting lost and having no clue which direction of 295 we needed, to Rach grabbing the wheel while I stripped. I love how we fight like "cousin and wife". Definately the best road trip, and definately kidnapping my girls and going to DE again soon

Twp district band festival was last night. And it definately made me dislike little kids even more than I already had. It was kinda a waste of my night considering I still cant play anything, so yeah whatev, im over it. But afterwards at points of five was fun! took fun pics, Ill post them later on

No work tomorrow night= Im lovin it. But I dont know what Im going to do with myself? what does one do on a Friday night for fun?? perhaps shopping? or Philly? or bowling? who knows.

I love money. Getting paid rocks my world.

He definately eye fucked the shit outta me yesterday Rachel!

goodnight loves

Blast!= amazing

2006-01-18T03:53:08Z

Tonight I saw Blast! live with Cindy, Al, Danielle, and Patrick and it was awesome. Thats pretty much the only way to describe it. It was also good to see twp kids like Michelle, Steph, Ali, Gross, Christina, and some of my drumline boys. oh how I want them to come back to the CBAC again b/c Id def be all over that!

And all over this! Random hottie from the drumline, we struck up a conversation and all. But of course nobody witnessed it. Atleast I have my autographed program to look back on hah. Basically, there's no show that can top what I saw tonight <3

sup...sup...sup....AYYYY

2006-01-11T03:48:24Z

some guy called Adelphia tonight and asked if he could suck my toes. Then when I repetitively asked him what his name was and what he wanted, he asked me 3 questions in order for me to get his name. 1.) What size shoe are you? 2.) What color toe nail polish are you wearing? 3.) Do you want to know my size downstairs? He was such an asshole, and in the end I still never got his name and he refused to get off the phone until I said it was okay to suck my toes. um what?

Indoor is moving along rather smoothly. a few bumps here and there, but it is going to be an awesome show. oh hey crazy 6 count sets!

work meeting tonight blew. I hate people. I hate getting yelled at. I hate being hated.

DECA Regionals tomorrow, hope everything goes well.

I got a new puppy. I didnt want to get another dog just yet, but Dal sort of just came home with it last week. I call it Kujo. It likes to hump me and bite my feet. Its trainer is coming Thursday, so maybe everything will work out in the end. but I miss Brandy so much :(

Im def not looking forward to work this weekend. "Miscommunication" my ballssssss!

I get to babysit Aubrey Sunday! We are going to see Rick Charette at the CBAC. I think I'm more excited than he is hah.

I cant help but be depressed all the time, especially the past few weeks. You would be too if you lived in my house. I try really hard to just get over the little things that arent worth stressing over, but theres only so much I can control. I only know of one person that can completely understand what I mean by all this, other than that it just seems like Im complaining. and now things are really rough at home so it makes things like a bajillion times worse. jfhfaslfjdsjkgk.

k im done. NIGHT.

rip Brandy<3

2006-01-04T22:46:58Z

I'll miss the way you would chase your own tail in circles
I'll miss sneeking you turkey and cheese when I came home from school everyday
I'll miss shaking your paw
I'll miss the way you'd get excited about a simple walk around the block
I'll miss laughing at you when you slid on the hardwood floor
I'll miss laying on the couch with you and getting yelled at
I'll miss scratching your ticklish spot on your belly
I'll miss feeding you whip cream, even though Al scarred you for life
I'll miss the way you would go in the bath tub during a thunderstorm
I'll miss coming home and seeing missing food or torn up trash
I'll miss seeing you at my feet when Im on the laptop
I'll miss saying "sup dog" everytime I walked in the front door
I'll miss scaring you with the lawnmower or the vacuum
I'll miss you scratching the deck door so much we'd have to get a new one
I'll miss everything about you and I'll never forget you
*I LOVE YOU BRAN*

we couldnt win in the end

2006-01-03T00:06:32Z

Im home from Cali
and I'm not a fan :(
It was such an awesome trip
spent with my bestest friends
I met lots of people from all over the country
and Japan
Im going back and staying there for good
Are you coming with?

ONE MORE EFFIN WEEK

2005-12-20T03:17:26Z

I need to buy a camera for San Diego. Any recommendations?

so this is my bitch post

2005-12-12T07:06:12Z

I suggest you don't continue reading this post if youre going to criticize my bitching. thanks love :)

so today couldnt have possibly been any worse than it was. I wake up and I walk past my bathroom, not even close to being inside of it, and a picture of my grandpop falls from the wall, glass shattered everywhere. yeah NOT COOL it scared the shit out of me. I leave to get gas and notice I forgot my glasses which I need to drive so I had to go back home to get them before I went to church, which also wasnt the greatest, but we wont mention anything of that nature. Then I leave church to go to Vercchios. So I get there and the line was so long, one lady said she'd been waiting for an hour and 20 mins just for some damn turkey so I said eff that, they were on #61 and my # was 81. yeah no thanks. So I go to Shoprite. I park the car and notice that I parked next to a van in which the driver of the van I dislike very much. I wanted to piss on the van, but my superego stopped me. So I go in the store. Can you say long lines!? (not to mention I had work at 5) ok so I get all my shit and leave. Im driving out on Greentree, realizing I forgot to buy lunchmeat. Eff that. My next stop was Sam's cemetary. So I get there, everythings cool calm and collective. I get out, hang up the cute little stocking I decorated for her, get back in the car, start the car, drive the car for a hot 6 seconds, go to turn the wheel left to take the left branch of the cemetarys little road, and my fuckin wheel wont turn. I panicked and my foot is still on the gas. and HELLO TREE! almost hit a damn tree, I dont know what stopped it from happeneing. So I get out, notice a huge puddle of maroon liquid coming from under my car, only to find out after several phone calls it was low on wheel fluid oil shit because its power-steered. WHO DOES THAT?! luckily some dude also in the cemetary at the time had some wheel oil mess but it didnt do shit anyway because the fan belt came undone. yeah for all those non-mechanics out there, including myself, it basically makes your car run. Without the belt running through the 5 or so caps on track, you have no control of the car. Sure the damn car will start, but it wont steer, wont drive, wont be useful. So a million phone calls later, 6 random people asked me if I was alright, Brittany comes and gets me, the car stays, my dad and the towtruck goes to the wrong cemetary, and Al can't find me. WOO way to listen, dad. Oh yeah and thanks for freaking out at me for all this b/c you know I wanted it to happen. Its after 4:00, I call work and explain the situation, they dont give a shit if youre on your death bed, you better be at work on time. Ok so now I need to find a way to/from work. Im in a state of panic. Brittany is yet again Hero of the Day. Just keep in mind folks: I'm in a damn cemetary. okay now I go home, get dressed for work, no one at home cares about my emotions from this whole car situation so fuck that. I drive Al's car to work, things are fine for the moment, and then I see The Bitch and Im in the worst mood again! I cant stand her. She makes me so angry, Im sick of looking at her snotty ass face, I'd quit just because of her if I didnt need the $ so bad. Long work story short, I didnt smile once between 5 and midnight. Want to hear the best part of tonight? I go to CVS and what do you know, my total comes to $6.66 okay come on now what the hell did I ever do to deserve all the shit I went through today, and the day before, and the whole week, and the whole month, and the whole damn year? I hate this house, things with a certain somebody were going good until latly, I thought I liked work but whats to like if nobody there likes you? You may just think I had a bad day, but its EVERYDAY. OOOOh yeah and my cell phone sucks my balls. I charge it for house until its full batterym I unplug it, and it dies. and when someone calls me, I push talk, it doesnt work at all it completely shuts the connection down. and I receive texts/missed calls/voicemails 3 days after theyre actually sent to me. what the fuck. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH someone please help me. I need help.. yeah thats it..I would say "goodnight", but that would be saying too much.

well I guess this is growing up

2005-12-05T23:14:00Z

hope in a kiss: fucking cunt sucker dickwad

yeah thats him! Krissy knows how it is.

so tonights rehersal is cancelled which is always nice, but I'm still bummed out for a couple reasons. One being I could have worked tonight. Another being anywhere but this place called "home" is wonderful. And now, I wont get to see..well...see someone I look forward to seeing at rehersals. We'll just leave it at that.

Last week was such a bad week, lets hope this one is better. HAHAHAH who am I kidding? For real now.

wow snow, you seriously cant come down any slower. Thanks.

71188-12404

2005-12-05T22:57:25Z

my Pull
my best friend
always, always, and always

don't break me

2005-12-01T03:36:37Z

ok well lets start off by saying "Hello, my name is Rebecca and my homelife sucks."

Then we will backtrack to last weeekend. I went to a couple parties which is always chill and then got fitted for my bridesmaid dress! It makes me happy everytime I think about my cousins wedding, even though its not for another 8 months. Its the first wedding I get to be in, so im psyched.

Monday was the first Cali pracice= meaningless. I stood there the whole time while C still decides "what to do with me" since I still cant play my instrument with is also meaningless. Hopefully I get to spin in Cali that would be awesome, so that way I'm actually useful in the performances. And spinning brings me to my next topic of choice...

INDOOR STARTED TONIGHT! oh hey hip-hop class! yeah Im really excited for indoor this year. Its my last one at twp *tear* and its going to be great. TJ told us our show and music and possible uniforms. Look up "Lex" on the Superman soundtrack, and you will be listening to our indoor music. Its a whole new concept, and it means business. yay for being serious, I think it will work for us "girly girls" hah! FOR REAL.

ok lets get down to business for a couple seconds ladies and gentlemen. 1.) I hate drama. I am a mature young lady, so keep the bullshit far from me okay? Great! 2.) If something is bothering me, let it bother me. I will be over it approximately 25 minutes after it takes place. 3.) Im in love, and can't get out.

I hate to sound like Im complaining, I do not mean to. Just figured I'd throw these things out there.

RACHEL DALEY I MISS YOU!

yes and one more thing-

Come to Adelphia's restaurant and I will seat you :)

No day but today

2005-11-24T05:33:56Z

RENT WAS AMAZING. KLDJLKSAFJHKJSDHKLA;SKDFKL and I wanna see it over and over and over again. Who is coming with??!?!?!?!!!?!

more tomorrow, Im too tired to type the amazing-ness of the night because FOOTBALL is retarted and decided to have a game tomorrow in the damn A.M. and the damn cold and on damn Thanksgiving. Happy Thanksgiving by the way :)

serene in green: so im glad ur back in school madameoiselle
serene in green: ohh laa laa ms.krol
serene in green: <3 :-D

aw yay.

although no school for 4 days= wonderful

There's only us
There's only this
Forget, regret
Or life is yours to miss

becba @ 2005-11-20T19:25:00

2005-11-21T01:41:46Z

Remembering everything about my world and when you came. Wondering the change you’d bring means nothing else would be the same. Did you know what you were doing? Did you know? Did you know how you would move me? Well I don’t really think so. But the night came down and swept us away, and the stars, they seemed to paint the most elaborate scene today. How could we know that so this show we learned so much about ourselves from Toledo to Tokyo? The words were scribed on every page and now there’s books up on our shelves. Did you know how you would move us? Did you know when the lights first came upon us, and we saw the everglow? And the moments magic swept us away, and the young mans dream was almost seen so plain. When was the night that showed us the sign revealed in the sky to leave all behind? But where to begin? Throw the caution to the wind. We’ll reach for the stars; everything is now ours. Did you know how you would move me? Did you know? Did you know how you would move me? Well, I don’t even think so. But the moments magic swept us away and it’s so close, but we’re so far away. It’s so close, but we’re so far away.

::sigh::

Harry Potter 4 was wonderful.

I still have to make pants for Tuesday.

I hate this house.

3 days til Rent!

becba @ 2005-11-18T21:25:00

2005-11-19T02:32:57Z

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your Livejournal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

deeper into you- trust company
hide and seek- imogen heap
goodbye, goodnight- mae
let go- frou frou
doun- vanessa mae
shake- ying yang twins
kill- jimmy eat world
brand new day- forty foot echo

I tag everyone. ready andddddd....do it.

so yeah make up work is a bitch. Dont ever miss a month and a half of school. Promise?

I got in a huge fight with my bitch sister last night and this afternoon so I did the obvious: cried, ran away, went to the bank and took out a shit load of money, and went shopping. But thats just me. what would you have done? oh wait don't answer that, you dont have a devil for a sibling.

harry potter in one hour, I am really excited!

so who wants to adopt me? I'm up for a thrill.

"Its not goodbye, its see you soon"

2005-11-09T04:36:23Z

Band is officially over. How many days til indoor? Too many. I cant wait. jaKDLJAF;L.

me and krissy are some crazy bitches. we are insane when we go to Friendly's but seriously now whaaat did that chick put in our sundaes? oh and youre not cool until you stalk people at Denny's. ok? ok.

more tutoring tomorrow, then some fun stuff planned for the rest of the week/weekend.

oh, and <3. yeah its great.

Rip Mommy
11/7/53- 11/8/02
*I love you*

becba @ 2005-11-03T19:59:00

2005-11-04T04:10:48Z

same old, nothing new going on in my life to brag about

except for my new hair cut. eeeeee! its short! its fun and def. growing on me

all day long I watch movies (compliments of Martini), do homework, tutoring, eat applesause, and pretty much just party all by myself. Oh and not to mention I sleep til like noon everyday its pretty wonderful. But my swollen face isnt!

I'll be back to school hopefully the 14th, we'll see. I actually want to go back to school, I miss everyone

I really need to do college stuff. where to start?

Halloween was a good time. I dressed up as a fairy and went trick-or-treating. I'll never be too old to trick-or-treat! It was fun even though I felt like shit. The party was fun tooo :)

Tonight was the LAST band rehersal of the season woooo! Im happy I went..I kinda had to if I plan on marching at Giants Stadium this weekend which Im also excited about. Rehersal was a lot for me to handle tonight...I was very weak and tired and shaky. I guess thats what missing a month of band does to you. But it was still a good time.

SAT's this saturday :/ I just want to get them over with.

Im obsessed. I can't help it.

I feel like a whole new person...

becba @ 2005-10-24T08:10:00

2005-10-24T15:24:13Z

No school for another 2 weeks.

homeshow. whaaaaaat was that mess? twp had a good show and im very proud of the scores but whaaaaaat was with everything else?

I have to finish applying to colleges. Actually, lets make that "start" applying. But I have no motivation. whatsoever.

I saw Erin Brockovich last night and I liked it a whole lot. Thats the kind of dominating work I want to do when I start my life.

My swollen face is pissing me off. Im sick of people making fun of me! grow up!

I can't wait til indoor.

I want that man. Screw dudes.

I dont sleep anymore. what is with that?

becba @ 2005-10-14T23:15:00

2005-10-15T03:35:11Z

Today was my post-surgery appointment with the Amazing Dr. Burke. and at this appointment he surprised me with something I sure as hell didnt see coming. he undid my wire & bands and let me open my mouth for the first time! you have no idea how amazing it was to see my top and bottom teeth touch. my top is slightly over my bottom. I can smile. I have a midline. I can say my S's for real. I cried. I still cry sometimes out of excitement and its been 12 hours since the appointment. I am allowed to "eat" now even though all 5 of my jaw muscles were torn its all good! hell no I cant eat pizza or steak yet :( but I can say for real S's people! yeah its been a week and a day and Ive barely eaten/drank a thing. the doc said I have such strong jaw bones he sees quick and successful recovery- but not quick enough :( still no band, no school, and I still have to wear the mold & bands when Im not eating. all I can say is its been the shittiest longest depressing emotional stressful week to my knowledge and a huge THANK YOU to everyone who's been there for me, whether is was with a milkshake or a phone call :) it makes me happy to know the band is doing well and my section is behaving (for the most partt) but I still wish I could march. I feel like Im missing out on so much even though its only been a couple rehersals and a show. time needs to go by faster than it has. being home all the time is nice to a certain extent, then I just go crazy. so it looks like tonight is a night of movies since I do not sleep, and tomorrow is a homework day. eeeeeeeeeee! time for some more drugs. Goodnight.